So much for my good mood...

Well – yesterday I felt oddly at peace and waxed poetic about how my nearly clean kitchen was akin to a day at the spa....well...today was a freefall back to reality. My DD coughed all night so I barely slept, then she had the nerve to get up raring to go before 7am. Totally bleary eyed and exhausted this morning I managed to drop a bag of brown sugar (of course the zip lock top was open) from the counter. Sugar everywhere! Where it is not already a gritty mess it is soon to be sticky one. So much for refreshed and rejuvenated, today I just feel like an old tired Mom again. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

Afternoon Delight

PJ had a play date this afternoon and I had two hours to myself. How did I spend two whole blissful hours alone? Visions of a long bath or a good book or some shopping did float through my mind – but in the real world I ended up having a conference call with my boss, vacuuming my house, and doing about a weeks worth of baby dishes that were piled next to my kitchen sink. How did I feel afterwards? Strangely refreshed and rejuvenated! I am a busy Mom and time to myself is at a premium. I never would have thought I'd spend any stolen moments cleaning – but these days some simple cleaning in a dead quiet house seems like a treat. Even though I only got through baby dishes and have more in the queue, I got a real sense of accomplishment for making a dent in my to do list.

It is a busy world and we Moms juggle a lot. Sure, a spa day now and again is nice, but I think it pretty great that we can find a bit of peace in the ordinary to refresh us and give us the energy to get back to the messy life of raising kids.

Getting back on Track

Today I did something just for me, something I have not done in over a year. I wore my watch. Seems trivial enough, but this little step is my start toward reclaiming what I have lost of my own life over the last 15+ months. You see, I am a new mother, and I have become everything I swore I would not. I am a baby wearing, toddler nursing, mother who has not had a date with her husband since her baby was born....over a year ago!!! I was an independent career woman who became a stay at home mom - and lost herself in the process. This is the story of my first year with my baby...and my journey back to myself.